The Ocean of Vulnerability

As some of my friends witnessed last week, I recently took a week-long swim in the ocean of vulnerability.

Confidently, I dove right in by signing up for a 5-Day Challenge not knowing what each days’ requirement would be.

Honestly, I was looking really forward to starting this endeavor.  I felt the excitement and joy with my inner-entrepreneur at the helm as we anticipated the journey and success of navigating a challenge!  Exciting, right?!  There were prizes offered too and I could just taste the amazing sweetness of winning the grand prize!

The Beach.

The first day was creative, fun, and easy…like treasure hunting on a beach with lots of beautiful shells to sift through.  But the second day got a little tougher as I was encouraged to actually step into the water.

What I realized at this time was that I had really signed up for a voluntarily falling into the deep-end of my truth…and sharing it on social media!  Then the second realization flowed in like slow motion…I was already standing too close to the edge not to try to fall into it with as much grace as I possibly could.

So I tippy-toed slowly into the fringed and cold edges of the mildly-crushing breakers I was now faced with.  I found myself wading and waiting in the shallow for signs of my life to reveal themselves, telling me ‘We’re okay to do this,” encouraging me to want to do it, then going deep inside ‘the secret life of Shannon’s past.’

I admit I have chosen this life and every single one of my choices, I’m willing to own it all.  But what I was scared to death of was judgement of who I am now, today, the soulful spiritual me that’s not wounded anymore, and that feeling of having swam too far out of the safety zone.

That’s where the breakthrough happens, so I did it anyway.

The Swells.

Anything but a leisurely float on my back facing the soulfulness of the sun, I found myself, instead, paddling furiously through the rolling waves of my life’s story.  All of it showed up on my table to digest, the emotions and feelings that I’ve masked for a very long time.   Not all of the bad and ugly was served up on social media, but I certainly had to have it come forward, lean in to it with no resistance, then decide how to filter it in small doses each day using my best portion control skills as to not overwhelm or over-tell.

Halfway through the week, I had my third realization…that the real truth was that I needed to stand within my experiences confidently, not sourcing energy from a space of weakness but from empowerment!  After all, I’d been present in all my past moments, so scrapping them together into chapters of a book I was able to see all that I had overcome and accomplished…that all those “choices” were stepping stones along my journey and opportunities for growth!

Have you been courageous and brave enough to say YES in stepping into the mystery of an adventure that came your way, come to find out it didn’t work out the way you thought it would? 

I am able to see now that every single bit of my journey was purposeful for what I needed in order to get exactly where I AM!

The Deep Calm Sea.

My fourth realization came forward in the final days of waking up to where I am at right now.  The successes I’ve had becoming beacons that will continue to light my path moving forward.

I am now far out into the deep calm sea of clarity, where I can acknowledge the absolute beauty of my life.  I am grateful for the challenges that were presented to me so that I could become the person I AM.  And I honor family above all else in this life.  For their love and support has always in all ways been my foundation and home base.  I am so blessed to have them.

I am a woman of depth, yeah, there’s no doubt about it.  I won’t apologize or feel unnecessary in being that or anything else I AM any longer.  Not everyone resonates with a person like me (who is same as you, just different), and it’s absolutely a thousand percent okay, I’m completely neutral about who accepts me and who doesn’t because we are One regardless.

I love what IS within the All of Us.  That IS enough.

Basking in the glory and gratitude for the people who have been my guides and angels along my journey, I am proud to say, “Hey guys, I made it!  I’m here.  I’m here.  I’m here!

I’m kissing the ground You walk on Brothers and Sisters, ❤ happy to have another day in this life with you, doing my thing, and praising you for doing yours!”

My final realization, you see, is that I was the only one who ever judged me.

On wings and waves of grace, I fall into love with me and you every single day.

Shannon

 

 

2 Comments (+add yours?)

  1. Matt
    Nov 22, 2019 @ 08:41:25

    S: Your writing style is simply incredible! Thank you for sharing your journey with others, I feel that a lot of people can relate and learn and grow from your personal revelations. I really do hope you are filing these writings away somewhere together (w/ a backup copy too!) as I strongly feel they should be compiled to be used in a future project(?). Anyway, keep up the good work, your soul searching applies to everyone. Thank you!

    Reply

    • Root Chakra Healing
      Nov 24, 2019 @ 10:29:42

      Oh my gosh, thank you so much Matt!! I write blindly in hopes it resonates with someone who reads it. I appreciate the feedback and compliments as that helps as to not beat myself up for my own honesty, you know what I mean? I love you and thank you for always being my biggest fan. Again, family…yeah you are sooooooooooooo everything to me! Talk to you soon, Sister Shan.

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